In my dead great grandmother’s belongings, I find a pamphlet entitled
“Stop Worrying and Start Living.” It is something that my mother would call
a warning; something that my father would call junk, or worse, shrug
and say, If you like it, then you like it. I like another poet. We walk
through parking lots gilded with rainwater and that dying sun. I open my arms
to a passing car, to the joke of death because of fear and not
the thought that it is funny. I have imagined both love and death as unforgiving
things until now, in that next morning, in that phosphorus dawn, a cigarette
swinging in your lips, smiling at me, my arms open.
'Poètes M(ort)audit' is a poem that i wrote in 2018. It was published in awkward mermaid literary magazine, which you can read online.
The accompanying photography for this piece was shot by Audrey Gretz.